emergence

people have asked me many times lately, if i'm nervous about my big nyc debut tomorrow night.

no, i'm not. i don't get nervous about these things (granted, in practice i was a bit off, but that is what practice is for). i thought today, does a bird get nervous before it flies? nah. it just leaps out and lets the wind catch it and carry it where it will.

so i shall be carried to my read and home.

my journal is called emergence. this is it for me. coming out. in many ways. a lot will change for me tomorrow. a lot has changed all ready. many, unexpected changes. losses unseen. but i will weather them. as i've weathered all the losses past.

tomorrow is a new day. time to do what i was created to do. a great adventure begins. something that has been building strength for a great while. the time is now.

my set is kind of a downer, serious with a few light spots. hopefully it will speak to souls, rather than just be ear candy. i want to nourish deep roots. to touch women and explore difficulties.

my life is fraught with difficulty of late. but it all depends on how i look at it. is it a trial or an adventure? i opt for the adventure route. who knows who i'll meet next. who knows where i'll read next. who knows? who really knows?

i've not had time to just sit in the moment and think about tomorrow. too much to do to get away for the better part of the afternoon and evening. but tonight. i'll shut it all down, and sit in silence for a while.

remembering, this is just the beginning. this is not the end.

the best is just ahead, around the bend, where i can't see it.

and i am looking forward to it.