stand down

so we are incredibly sloooowwww at *bux. i hate standing around, so i've taken to calling and seeing if we're slow or busy, i have too busy a life to stand around for five hours even when i'm getting paid for it.

all i could do the other day was think of my laundry pile, how i could spend those five hours, a luxury for me.

but i was trapped, they wouldn't let me go because i was closing.

so, i am calling in advance now.

do you need me? i can even just go in for the acutal work about a half hour to forty five minutes in advance of clockout.

but once the fly is stuck in the web, it cannot get free. the more it wrestles, the more it struggles, the greater the entrapment.

so i struggle before the web, to navigate around the tangles. and i will go in as needed. though all this time doing other things has made my time at the espresso bar awkward. one needs to practice or you get rusty.

how quickly one becomes unfamiliar with the tools of the trade. i understand why you can lose your certification at this joint if you don't work in two months. (or less, i'm not sure the exact date).

the mgr said to me today that i may be titled soon, and she wishes others would call out rather than getting paid for doing nothing.

understand we used to run our giant mall store with two people. i'm not used to being six people packed in behind a coffee bar just standing around. i'd rather not, thank you.

so, last night when i called out, i laid down at 7pm and woke up this morning at 9:30. what can i say, i'm tired.

time to rest. the rush of the holidays is over.
sleep is good.