squirrel love.

it's been a while since i've posted poems, so here are a few from the last couple days. a dear friend suggests this title to me, probably more as a joke than anything, but i found it funny. (and i really thought it was mother's day yesterday. i really never know what day it is. and holidays, forget it).


i have been so
___aware of my
emptiness
i was blind
___to the abundance
all around
I was so in touch
___with longing
neglected joy
i was so attuned
___to lament
i could not hear
___kindnesses
so in need of
___comfort
unfound.
i only wanted you
___through all
___of it
no word
___from any other
meant as much.
i only wanted you
___and you alone
that i ignored
___those whose
love surrounds
___me.
i only wanted
___you.
but no more--
___i'm choosing
______joy
fulfillment
believing i can
___be loved.
by those closest
___to me.


...


___i.


Do you think me
____as beautiful
as I think you
Are you as enamoured
____of me
My heart leaps
____and skips
at the thought
____of you
Tell me,
____does yours
________too?
Do you think me
____as magnificent
as wise
____and true
as I think
____you
Are you as enamoured
____of me
dear soul
____as I am
________of you?


____ii.


right now you are
_____so trusting
_____so curious
_____so brave

what will it take
_____to finally drive
_____the wedge of fear
_____between us

right now you are
_____so curious
_____trusting
_____brave


___iii.


you're hiding now
i know you're there
___unseen
i hide in the
___open
hoping you'll
___come again
let me see
___your beauty
witness your grace
revel in your
___simplicity
let me watch you
___laugh and play
come to me
___again--


____iv.


i will hurt you.
____if not me
someone just like me.
____i will get the blame
we'll be forever parted
____which is probably
for the best
____because
i will hurt you.
____if not me
someone just like me.


(these were all written about the squirrels i've been watching.)


...

if i call out
___in the cool dark
______morn
will you hear
___me call?
if i sing aloud
___my heart's true song
______will you hear it?
if i call out
___will you reply
______and come to me
if i call out
___in the cool dark
______morn
tell me, will you
___answer me?


(i heard a bird call and echoed it. i looked up in the tree and a robin was searching for a lover, a long lost friend, a companion. his breast swelled with each burst of song, and his tail descended as he forced the sound out. it was lovely to behold a longing, i understand).

...


nothing lasts forever
___i tell myself this often
because i thought we would
___i really thought we would.
nothing lasts forever
___i tell myself this
______often.


...

Have you, my mate of song
___and verse, now gone
found a new partner
___a new song
Have you Lord, who made
___me Queen,
found a new realm
___and people?
Have you my soul's kindred
___gone beyond
To the place i cannot follow
Will you never
___return?



...


Will you come
___carry my broken
______body away
When I am slain

Will you muster
___strength and courage
______to redeem my bones
When I am slain

Will you
____find the strength
______to admit knowing me
When I am slain?


(this last one came after i watched an ant carry a fallen comrade home. it reminded me of the courage it must have taken for the men around the cross to go request Jesus' body, to convey it to the tomb. to lay it to rest before the sabbath. such great courage).

poems are a great pain to post. so that is probably why i am so sparse with them. if you are a poet, join my poets in community group and share/read work there. i share more there than i do here. this is just too laborious to deal with when my works are formatted thus.

peace.