walk in beauty

my resolution then. someone asked me if i had one, and i thought that as good as any. i keep trying to improve my station and it seems the only way to do that is to become kind. not just outwardly though. the deep kindness one can feel as a person's essence. i don't know that i've ever possessed that (or embodied it, is probably the right way of saying it).

i have moments when i'm less selfish than others, moments i'm more inclined not to bite the head off innocent standersby. but, for the most part, i'm not deeply, inwardly kind. and this year, i mean to change that.

that is what beauty is all about, i think.

when you see a gorgeous woman, if she is stuck on herself or demeaning to others, how deep is that beauty? not very.

when you see a person who is perhaps not the most fabulous feast for the eye, but has that inner resonance of kindness, they transform and become more beautiful before your once judgmental eyes. what has made them lovely? certainly not their physical attributes, but their kind soul.

i don't think these are exclusives, the beautiful can also be kind. i'm just trying to distinguish between the kind of beauty i mean.

walk in beauty could also be, walk in kindness.
because an entitled beauty is no feast for the eyes (or not more than a feast for the eyes).

so, i guess i'm setting myself up for some trials, we do not grow without them. but i like to think of it as i'm setting myself up for a compassionate, presence filled year.

to be kind, one must be present.

too long i've been distracted.

and this year i mean to walk in beauty.