to india

the new job in south jersey would include travel, perhaps to india. i would not go, at least i'd try with my whole being to refuse, because i do not think he can protect me there. and i do not feel safe to go there unprotected.

there comes a time when we must draw a line and say,

this is as far as i go.

carry on if you must, but i must remain here.

there comes a time when we must abandon fear and set out on our own.

how near that time draws to me now and i feel the thrill of struggling to make it on my own.

but i've gone and said too much, and now you've probably connected dots that i had hoped would remain obscure. however, thinking about it now, i probably paint the picture so clearly, (for those who would understand), that it's an impressionist painting of sorts.

just in from the gym, my abs feeling the afterburn of a thousand situps. and i am signing up for a new kick your ass workout program because i've grown lax and the machines lose their allure.

this thing is supposed to track your progress and challenge you each time. it automatically increases as you gain strength.

which is good. i, like most people, am inclined toward laziness. and unless i have someone riding me, will do the very least possible.

so, mechanical trainer it is.

it's a strange world where so much is automated. and i look forward to tomorrow. but do not rush past today, for it is here i set my course.

peace. out.