forced

i've forced a lot of issues in my day. and while i don't ever want to do that to someone i love, i confess, i have. i look at the liberties i've taken, and now realize, moving out of the area was the best move for me. i would have taken more.

now i'm just too tired to force any issue, because i simply don't have time or the desire to do so. little consolation for me, i must move on. move forward. it is time.

i just hadn't realized how hard i was making it. and for that oversight, i wish i could make it right. but the only thing for me to do is bug out.

and so i will.

pain is something palpable. i understand it. we ally ourselves with souls we hope will understand us, and the best we can hope for is a moment of mutuality. that is what i've come to understand. it is enough.

we do the best we can and then must move on.

poetry intensive next weekend, just in time, as usual.