it may be okay

finally got my financial aid package. whew. talking with the kids at work who are on their way to school as well, some in different states, we're all in agreement that the finance aspect of schooling is the toughest. what to do.

they ask me questions about what i'm going to do, how i'm going to pay for this or that.

i don't know.

i tell them.

don't you worry?

no, why? i believe it will all work out, and it always does. this is life.

you see, i've been through so much shit and come out the other side, to find out that this is all it will ever be. in the meantime we need to grab whatever happiness we can along the way.

i will probably have to work until i die. i'm cool with that. i just hope there is some redeeming joy along the way. some moment of pleasure and connection with another soul.

these are what keep me moving forward from moment to moment.

and the belief that it will be alright.