Wednesday, July 09, 2008

remember the foam

i sank into the pool with my fresh tattoo sticking out of the water, i had to, it was hot. and i sat in the breeze under a tree with my new york friend. it was a lovely afternoon, and my daughter got shuttled away to spend time with her daughter and we just hope they won't have hormonal breakdowns simulatneously, or that they won't happen in the middle of the night. because i'm not going to drive that far for a meltdown. i told my kid,
if you want to come home, you're just going to have to deal with it.

okay.
she said. eager to go.

she doesn't breakdown, or usually want to come home, but this is the first time at this new friend's house for an overnight, so who knows.

it was one of those, everyone seems to have missed their bus or is running to catch their train days. i have a poem that started brewing when i offered this man a ride today.

i'm a sucker for the man racing to catch a bus, the way his arms fly up in defeat as the bus pulls away.

i pulled up to this particular man, greying hair, a plaid taupe jacket, black messenger bag.

i can give you a ride to the next bus stop if you'd like.


and he hops in, my car is full of crap (always), so he just steps on it all, an i apologize for the clutter.

but i get stuck at the red light before i've even left the curb.

you're not going to make it.
he says. then exits the car.

i wasn't on a particularly tight schedule and would have taken him to the next or next bus stop (the bus system is pretty unforgiving). but he didn't want my help ultimately. so i drove on. went to work out.

my friend sat across from me when the topic came back to poetry (sorry kids, it's a major theme in my life), and said,
you are courageous for writing what you do. i spent my life not talking about those things. and there it is, in black and white, you said it all. the book is intense.


she wanted to warn me off of writing that way, but then i explained to her,
it is what i do. i do it because i can. i do it for those who cannot.


and then she carried away my child for an evening of fun, and i was going to study, but now i don't have to.

huzzah!

4 comments:

gregr said...

Don't be offering rides to strangers. You know better than that. Poor guy misses his bus. But you know what? Another one will be coming along soon. Watch the TV show "I Survived". They often feature stories about people who feel sorry for idiots on the side of the road or people who ask for rides and then next thing they know, that person has a gun or says they have a gun and abducts them and tries to kill them. Sometimes they only kill one of them, that's why the one who lived is on the show. Don't pick up strangers.

siouxsiepoet said...

now this is not a man standing beside a road with a sign. that man could have ulterior motives. this is a man trying to catch a bus, fixed on catching a bus. i'm not a fool. i just don't pick people up. but i had to try to help. don't know that much will change in that department. i seriously doubt a killer is going to try to run down a bus. they seem focused on other things (killin' is my business, and business is good).

but thank you for your concern. :)

MD Brauer, MD said...

You'll never change and that's what i like about you. Keep writing what you need to

gregr said...

okay smartie. Just don't say I didn't warn you. Where are my socks when I really need them. That man should leave his house earlier next time.