work sense

sometimes work makes sense to me. it reminds me of why i am here, who i am. that i have a purpose. that i am capable. this is why, i think, women work outside the home. to find themselves again.

the monetary incentive may be slight but something is a better indicator than nothing.

and tonight, when i arrived, the place was utter chaos. a young girl who was promoted out of a lack of options was all ready starting the closing duties at 3:30pm. which is madness. so she had the place torn apart by the time i got there. and i can't function like that. we covered this all ready.

then, she takes her lunch and leaves early. leaving me holding the ball.

i was irrirated because it was clearly immaturity that was the problem. she doesn't know what to prioritize so she undid most everything and thought this "helpful" even though she was advised (ironically) by the girl who gave me shit last time i worked that i don't do it the way she was doing it.

so when that young manager left, i said,

let's get it back together and then do it my way.

but there was so much that needed to be done just to get the place back to ground zero, it took some time to make up the lost ground. but we made it up. and things ran smooth as silk.

the young manager was warning me that she got out of there an hour late last night. that it was "crazy" and i need to be prepared.

i said,

okay, no problem.

my methods work. i trust them. it's easier to perform quickly in a sane environment than tearing the place apart and trying to do customer service.

without fail, when i run a shift, we get things cleaner and the store completely stocked before we leave.

i'm a damn good manager.

now if this held sway with my child, it would be well.

i see why women work. it's easier, in a sense, to be in a limited time commitment environment than home. home is draining, demanding, and the rewards are intangible.

i'm grateful to be doing both. the time away makes me miss my girl,
and the time at home has become more fruitful. i waste a lot less time than i used to simply because i have a lot less time to waste.

but i must go to bed sometime in the near future.

tomorrow i finally close alone. FINALLY.

i'm looking forward to it. we got out right on time tonight. i expect no less tomorrow.

and i look forward to the new adventure. but i won't get home until one am. hopefully i'll be able to sleep when i return home.

peace. out.