fantastic voyage

why do i keep coming here to talk to you. to tell you my tender humiliations. the foolish things i do and think. the great ideas that don't workout so well. because i can, maybe. because it's the only way i've got to reach out to you. because i know you'll listen, whatever crazy thing i have to say, and you will understand, even if you say nothing. and somehow, that is enough for me. enough for now.

watching bullriding again. it's one of the few things i have not grown tired of. i lose interest in a lot of things, quite rapidly. not that. never that. not yet at least.

heard a few tracks off the new metallica album. the judas kiss sucks. i'm sorry to say that. but it is full of cliches and bored me. i want to like anything metallica does, but i just don't. plain as that.

a rider just got hung in the bull rope, i don't know the terminology, but it's horrifying to watch. (those brazilians are damn good, the world cup is on and it's amazing. maybe sometime we'll catch it live. i haven't been to a rodeo in years. i think i would enjoy it more now).

i'm ready for an adventure. i can feel it.

but the timing isn't the best, i can't find time for much outside of work and school. today, i made a fashion faux pas--wore white socks with my black shoes. that smacks of granpa on the beach with plaid shorts. not the look i'm going for. and i did it to make my boss laugh.

he's got a lot of pressure. i do what i can to be a complete goofball. and it works. i don't know that many of those kids get my humor, it is kind of off. but he does. and we laugh laugh laugh while at work, i like that a lot. i would like to manage that way. he does use a lot of "rumors" to convey info. but beyond that, he's got a good style.

i have to buy some black socks tomorrow. i can't do another full day like that. i felt so silly. i imagine it looked atrocious.

i don't think myself vain but there are some things that simply should not be done.

black shoes and white socks are one of those things.

well, i'm tired now--or should be. i'll likely lay awake for awhile and try to find something called a magic carpet. i keep looking for it, but i don't know where it went or how to get it back, or if i ever could.

peace. out.