untired

i don't remember a time when i wasn't tired.

tonight, i could barely stand, my feet hurt so much. then at midnight, just as we're getting ready to finally clock out, i made a huge mess which had to be cleaned up.

sigh.

my co-worker and i sat in the car talking for awhile, and that was nice, but i'm so tired. and i have to get up early to go feed the horses, and i'm so tired.

i don't remember a life when i had time in excess.

i don't know what i have in excess now, perhaps exhaustion.

it's the kind of tired you can't shake.

i need to do something about these hours. they are too much. too much.

and i'm under orders from my girl to go straight to bed, but i'm too tired to sleep. maybe i'll soak my feet and take some ibuprofen.

that might help.

ah, to be untired.