where to land

i've leapt out, off the cliff, as of today. all my apps are in the mail, i've even sent in to get that reading in nyc. we'll see what happens. there's a curious lightness to this kind of waiting. i try to forget what i've done, all i've got out there.

meanwhile, this shift whose leaving our store is also a writer, poet, etc. i tell you, it's a cliche out here. and i'm considering showing her some of my works today. it's a risk, certainly. but i can show her some of the less intimate things i've got published.

i don't know what will happen. maybe i won't make it into either program, maybe i will. i just don't know. then it would come to deciding where to live, what to do next. and again, more questions.

there is tons of good news here. tons.

but i've raced around all day trying to get these loose ends tied up. now, off to work for a short shift with my boss and the poet shift whom i like very much. it should be a good night. i'm supposed to run the shift and we'll see how that goes. if my boss can keep it shut while i work, or if i'll shut down.

i'm hoping for the ability to lead tonight. as that is what i'm supposed to be doing.

and yesterday, i saw a kid training on the register traning program, and i asked my boss if i could do that because this register is nothing like my old store's.

he said,

you didn't do that yet?

nope.

i haven't really had any "official" training. and he's trying to get me into classes and whatnot, but it's a big headache for him. i'm grateful it's a priority though. and i hope it gets moving soon. i knew there was a lot of info i was missing.

peace. out.