who wins

i stared down the devil tonight.

no one wins in these situations. no one.

the only thing to do is try to control the damage.

i have a feeling i know the source of the bad advice my ex got about me. it was his not knowing me that broke the final fragile thread of trust between us.

he owned up to a lot tonight. and, we'll see if it amounts to more than just a bunch of words, meaningless words.

the devil doesn't know how to deal straight. i don't expect much. maybe a bit of time. time is helpful to me now.

but i am unafraid. and i've reclaimed my power.

at last.